Hi Steve and Austin,

I’ve been sitting with something for a while now.

Today is the day that I share it.

Something that’s been growing in me since my time on Bowen.

And I finally feel ready to put words to it.

What I experienced on that island—and what I continue to experience in my daily life—is unlike anything I’ve ever gone through before.

To be honest, I don’t think I fully understood the depth of what was happening to me in the moment. But now, as the days unfold and my practice deepens, I realize I wasn’t just stepping into a new practice…

I was stepping into a new version of myself.

And you both have played an irreplaceable role in that.

From the moment I stepped onto the island, I felt held. Seen. Guided. Safe.

Not just because of the land—but because of the energy you two bring to it.

You didn’t lead with force. You didn’t try to “fix” me.

You simply stood as guides. As steady mirrors. As light-bearers.

You allowed space for me to unravel and rebuild.

That space—the environment, the ceremonies, the music, the quiet, the porch, the damn couch—it’s sacred to me now. Bowen has become more than a location.

It’s a spiritual anchor. A portal. A home.

Over the last week, I’ve had visions that have changed everything:

– I’ve seen every version of myself, from birth, to boyhood to fatherhood.

– I’ve seen the patterns of wanting to be seen—how they shaped everything.

– I’ve seen my own death and rebirth. Literally.

– I’ve felt God not as an idea, but as a presence—an energetic truth.

– I’ve seen my wife and children with new eyes.

– I’ve met my own soul as if for the first time.

And at the center of all of it… is that island.

And at the gates of that journey… are the two of you.

You probably don’t hear this enough.

But you’re angels in human form.

There is a frequency you both carry that changes people—not by demanding transformation, but by allowing it.

You’ve created a place where people come undone and return whole.

Where truth is louder than ego.

Where silence speaks.

Where spirit lives in everything—from the bookshelves to the trees to the energy in that ultra-cool concrete floor.

Bowen cracked me open.

And it’s still doing that work inside me every day.

Thank you for your presence.

Thank you for your stillness.

Thank you for choosing to serve in this way.

You’ve changed my life.

With love, and a full heart,

Tony