Finding God Within

In this episode, we sit down with Quincy, a mother of nine from Utah, to explore a courageous journey of religious deconstruction, healing trauma, and finding safety in the unknown. Quincy shares her story of growing up in a devout Mormon family and the pivotal realization that she had to find God within herself rather than seeking it outside.

Quincy opens up about a previous “harrowing” 5-MeO-DMT experience where a lack of preparation and support left her reeling, and how that contrast highlighted the profound necessity of a safe container. At Enfold, she found the safety she needed to move through intense somatic releases—shaking, fear, and deep-seated anger—before breaking through to a state of pure, ecstatic joy.

In this episode we unpack:
– The Danger of “Drive-By-5” Dosing: Quincy shares her difficult first experience with 5-MeO-DMT and why lack of preparation and integration can leave seekers in a state of chaos rather than healing.
– Religious Deconstruction: The challenging path of stepping away from a devout upbringing to find your own spiritual truth, and the “black sheep” dynamics that often follow.
– Somatic Release: How the body stores trauma (specifically anger and fear) and why physical release—shaking, movement, and being held—was the key to unlocking her heart.
– Integration in Chaos: How to bring the peace of the medicine back into a home with nine children (including special needs twins), moving from control to acceptance.
– Healing Within Community: The incredible synchronicity of finding a “soul family” in her cohort—including a neighbour living just minutes away in Utah.

This conversation is a testament to the resilience of the human spirit. It explores how we can return to our busy lives (even with nine children!) with a newfound sense of presence, calm, and surrender.