Discovering self-worth

In this episode, John shares an intimate and courageous look at his healing journey — from a childhood shaped by trauma, to long stretches of depression and self-medication, to discovering 5-MeO-DMT and the profound shifts that followed. John speaks openly about growing up with his mother navigating schizophrenia, an absent father, and the deep sense of unworthiness that lived in him for decades. He reflects on how his first and second 5-MeO experiences at Enfold helped him understand his nervous system, release old survival patterns, and access a lasting sense of peace he had never known before.

We also explore John’s ongoing integration practice — including spirituality, IFS work, morning rituals — and how these have supported him through major life events, including a recent lung cancer diagnosis and surgery.

John’s story is an honest, hopeful example of what becomes possible when someone finally feels safe enough to meet themselves fully.